being childlike.

i wish every saturday morning could have started like this one. i had breakfast with a 9 year old and life felt right.
i'm really realizing how fortunate of a person i am. i have people all around me who are helping make my move to africa easier and more unified.
my last day of work was yesterday. that was a really great job and brought me so many new friends. it was just the place i needed to be. it's hard leaving it behind, but i know there are amazing days ahead.
but it's that time of preparing where everything shifts. i'm just trying to keep my feet steady. i see the high importance of god's word these days. i see the value of friendship and email. i see that when doors close, you don't try to force them open.

priorities are important to understand right now. because time doesn't rewind and in 8 days, i'll not be able to do certain things. i don't want to inhibit the grieving of others or myself by being afraid of the current pain. i don't want to judge others because that's the measure i'll be judged with in the end, and that's a scary thought.

i want to be poised and composed and i really am. i'm at peace with this decision. and i know that because i'm not trying to convince anyone of that. i'm just stating it because it's true, and then i'm letting my actions speak.

but being with children the past few days really helps. it simplifies things. coming at life with the innocence and hope and vitality of a child reminds me of better days. it's nice to be reminded today that it's ok to be childlike.